It’s All I Ever Wanted!

Sparkly birthday card from GG and Papa

Sparkly birthday card from GG and Papa

Sammie has just turned 4 years old.  She really isn’t sure what this means at all, she is still figuring out how to hold up 4 fingers without having the pinky finger curled down.

What she does know is this, on minute she is excited about being a big girl, and the next she is talking in baby talk.

She thinks her magic is gone now.  This makes me sad, but I think I need to work with her to help her realize that her magic lives in her imagination…in other words it lives in her ability to imagine and create.  Rather than feeling sad about her “losing” her magic, I see this as a wonderful opportunity to help her find that her magic is something she can control and develop.  I think we’ll have fun together learning how to express this magic that we all have.

For awhile she had a companion named Shadow.  None of us grownups could see or hear Shadow, only Sammie.  If Shadow needed to go to the bathroom, Sammie went.  Then a few minutes later she would go again but this time for herself.  If something spilled, or disappeared, Shadow was responsible.

This is typical of most three and four year olds.  However for Sam, it has developed into a whole community of shadow people.  According to her, shadow people are those who can not be seen but you can hear them.  They talk to you.  They also live in the moon.  They are nice people, as opposed to the aliens who live in the moon.  The aliens there are not nice at all.

The other night I was visiting over at Sammie’s house.  She was on the floor playing and started in with some baby-talk.  I curiously asked her where all this baby-talk was coming from, because, I said, I thought she had told me she was a big girl now.

She replied “I am a big girl, but I am still YOUR little baby!”  I scooped her up and held her like she was a little baby and started to rock her and sing.  She became very still and snuggled into me.

Being four years old means that there are exciting things to learn, new games to create, new pictures to paint, big girl dolls with a wardrobe of clothes to be conquered.  It means learning your colors and numbers, singing the ABC song, bursting out with “Let It Go” spontaneously.  It means picking up your toys and eating your food by yourself.  It means putting on and taking off your own clothes and wanting privacy in the bathroom.

Being four also means that you still remember being three, and the love you feel when Grandma cuddles you.  It means you remember how you can give that special look to Papa and he will spoon-feed you your food.  You remember being the center of attention just because you came over to visit.  You also know that this will probably never change.  Because you remember these wonderful things and how it makes you feel, you don’t want to lose these things and these feelings just because you are growing up.

Grandma understands!  My promise to Sammie is that I am here to help her.  I will help her discover the magic she was born with that never goes away, it just takes on different forms.  I will help her discover new experiences that she could not enjoy at a younger age.  Grandma also understands that she needs to always be my baby girl, so anytime we can cuddle and rock and sing lullabies, we will do so!

The reason I was at her house the other night is because it was the night of her fourth birthday.  Her big party will be on the weekend, but on her actual birthday her great-grandparents and I wanted to give her the gifts we bought for her.  Everyone should have a birthday gift on their actual birthday!  We also wanted to enjoy watching her open the gifts and appreciate them without all the overwhelming excitement and energy that takes place at a child’s party.  Her momma had a chocolate cake with four purple candles, Sammie managed to blow them all out after several tries and a wee bit of help from Papa.

I had fun teasing her when we first arrived, asking her if she knew why I was there because I could not remember!  And this package in my hand?  I wasn’t sure who it was for, could it be for mommy?

“It’s for ME” she said, “it’s MY birthday!”  She said this with great excitement.

After we all sat down in the living room and she had showed us her pinata and the huge balloon daddy had brought her, she reached for the package I brought.  She pulled out the doll clothes and shoes one by one and admired each item.  For a little girl she really knows how to enjoy opening a gift!  It is a pleasure to watch her, I can’t describe the joy it gives me to watch her face and hear her words as she expresses her appreciation!

A bag full of new doll clothes!

A bag full of new doll clothes!

After that, she reached for the packages that GG (great grandma) had brought her.  The first one was a good-sized plush My Little Pony named Twilight Sparkle.  She loved it!  Then came the last package, also from GG.

Sammie reached in and pulled out….a plush Elsa doll!  Complete with soft plush yellow hair, sparkly blue gown made of satin and tulle and blue satin slippers.

It's all I ever wanted!

It’s all I ever wanted!

Sammie was overjoyed!  The first thing she said was “ohh, it’s all I ever wanted!”  She repeated that over and over while holding the doll and twirling around.  She held it up over her head to look at it, and showed it to all of us, all the while repeating “its all I ever wanted”.

It was such a joy to watch her in such ecstasy over a doll!  On top of that, I don’t know whose face I enjoyed more, Sammie or my mom.  Mom’s face was beaming, so happy that Sammie was so happy with this gift!

I never really knew my great grandparents.  Neither did my son know his.  So I am really happy about the fact that my own parents are getting to enjoy having a great-grandchild and that Sammie gets to know them and have such memories for later in her life.

Sammie is also learning a really good lesson with all this.  She has wanted an Elsa doll since the movie came out last year.  Her mom says that every time they would go to a store and Sammie would spot one, she would beg for it.  Mommy would say things like “let’s wait and see what Santa bring”,  “let’s wait and see what you get for your birthday”,  ” that doll is so small, the price is too high for a small doll like that”.

So Sammie waited.  She waited and waited and waited.  For months she has sung “Let it Go”.  When she spends the night with me, we watch the video on my computer and she knows all the words to the song.  I am not allowed to sing it, only her!

I hope that now at this young age she is learning that waiting can be worth it!  After all, she waited as patiently as a three-year old can, and by the time she turned four, she received “all she ever wanted”!

Your turn!  Tell me about a time when you wanted something, anything and had to wait for it, making the final outcome that much sweeter!

What do you consider relevant?

Rather than doing rants about injustices I think it would be more beneficial for all if I posts articles about events and people who are taking a stand and making progress for peace and justice in the country and the world.

I want to stay positive, adding the negativity of ranting and resistance will not really help the highest good.  I believe that words, whether spoken or written, have their own energy.  The more positive energy we create the better is it for the highest good for all.

We Are Not Alone

We Are Not Alone

Some of my posts will celebrate those who have gone before us to promote peace and justice.  I think their stories are encouraging to those who slog through the systems that need reforming, those who work tirelessly to the point of exhaustion trying to find ways to better our existence.

What would YOU like to read about in these areas?  What do you consider relevant?  Who do you know that is doing the good work?  Please comment below and I will use the information to create my posts!

A Killer In Your Fridge ~ Sweet Poison…A MUST READ

Reblogging from another, and just want to add that in addition to the diseases mentioned in this article it is now believed that some forms of Parkinsons’s, especially young-onset Parkinson’s is caused by Aspartame. Susan – mysticheartblog

Rhonda Gessner

In October of 2001, my sister started getting very sick She had stomach spasms and she was having a hard time getting around. Walking was a major chore. It took everything she had just to get out of bed; she was in so much pain.

By March 2002, she had undergone several tissue and muscle biopsies and was on 24 various prescription medications. The doctors could not determine what was wrong with her. She was in so much pain, and so sick she just knew she was dying.

She put her house, bank accounts, life insurance, etc., in her oldest daughter’s name, and made sure that her younger children were to be taken care of.

She also wanted her last hooray, so she planned a trip to Florida (basically in a wheelchair) for March 22nd.

On March 19, I called her to ask how her most recent tests went, and…

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The Injustice of Medical Care Inequality

I don’t have any pretty pictures for this post.  All I have is indignation, concern and questions!  I am pretty good at doing research but the Affordable Care Act has me baffled.

The question at the front of my mind right now is this:  how can the federal government pass a bill into law that does not fully apply to the entire country?

It’s my understanding that the reason for this Act was to provide affordable medical care access to everyone.  There are supposedly affordable plans for everyone of every income level and if you have low or no income you are supposed to be able to get Medicaid.

Yet the law leaves it up to each state to decide whether or not that state will accept the expanded Medicaid plan.

How did this law pass Congress and get signed into action by the Democratic President of the United States with a huge loophole like this?

Do you know what this loophole means?  It means that someone  like myself, who is unemployed due to disability but is still waiting for the Social Security Administration to decide that I am actually disabled, someone like me who lives in a red state like Texas, still can not get Medicaid.

It means that my son, who is a manager at the company he works for, can not get affordable insurance because the plan offered by his employer is so expensive that if my son takes it, he will be bringing home less money on payday than he has in the past eight years.  Why doesn’t he have a better choice?

Why am I left dependent on the county healthcare service because I have no income?  Why do I not qualify for MedicaidWhy do I have to PROVE to the county hospital that I applied for and was denied Medicaid in a state that does not have expanded Medicaid?  Why do I have to prove this?

I am a Democrat.  I voted for Obama, I trusted that he would take care of this.  Why was it so important to get this so-called “Affordable” Care Act into law so fast that he could not wait until a more acceptable version was passed by Congress?

I know this Congress hates Obama.  I know that they try at every turn to block the things he wants to do for this country.

But I DO NOT UNDERSTAND why this bill was passed into law as broken as it was from the start!  WHY?  TO WHAT END?

This blog article is not like the articles I have posted.  I am going to keep on posting my usual stuff, but this year – 2015 – I am also going to take on subjects about peace and justice.

Tonight I have on my mind that the Affordable Care Act as it is right now, is an INJUSTICE!  If you agree, please repost this blog article!

NOTE:  Please comment with any information you have on good authority regarding the ACA, and also submit topics relating to Peace and Justice for future articles.  I WANT to KNOW what YOU want to hear about!!

Woven Together

From the blog written by my friend Darren, a worthy read, an elegant poem!

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There are not any divisions.

Just as body, mind, soul

are woven together,

social, political, spiritual

are a tapestry that intersects,

encircles, spirals, influences,

leading from one to the other.

They are not in separate boxes

on separate shelves.

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In God We Trust

From my friend Darren’s blog, good information about money and scriptures.

darren's thinking

REFUSE NEW COINS This simple action will make a strong statement.  Please help do this.. Refuse to accept these when they are handed to you. I received one from the Post Office as change and I asked for a dollar bill instead.  The lady just smiled and said 'way to go' , so she had read this e -mail.  Please help out..our world is in enough trouble without this too!!!!! U.S. Government to Release New Dollar Coins You guessed it 'IN GOD WE TRUST'IS GONE from the front and back!!! If ever there was a reason to boycott something,  THIS IS IT!!!! DO NOT ACCEPT THE NEW DOLLAR COINS AS CHANGE Together we can force them out of circulation.. Please send to all on your mailing list!

A variation of this meme is back in my Facebook newsfeed. “Refuse new coins.” The meme tells us. Apparently, not having the words “In God We Trust” engraved on the coin is something horrible.

“In God We Trust” first appeared on U.S. coins starting in 1864, 90 years after our founding. 1956 was when “In God We Trust” first appeared on U.S. paper currency, replacing the original U.S. motto, E pluribus unum, 182 years after our founding.

I suppose I could write what is already written in other places, but I will just link you to the Wikipedia entry. In my opinion, this is yet another in a long list of non-issues, but I will offer an opinion on it just the same.

This is usually an issue that upsets the evangelical Christian Right.

What first comes to mind, the topic of money comes up in the Bible 800 times. More times than…

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Fifty Five – Where Do I Go From Here…

birthday cake candles lit

Having just faced my 55th birthday I have been thinking and deciding what to do with the second half of my life. I spent the first half raising a child, working hard in corporate America and trying to save for retirement. When I think about those years I realize I was always looking forward, which is better than looking back, I suppose.

I also realize that I have missed out on many opportunities by not paying attention to the now. What do I want right NOW? How can I be happy NOW? Where can I find fulfillment NOW?

Now, not later.

Not Wasting Away

I am unable to work in the corporate world any longer due to disability. I don’t intend to just waste away either! I am a grandmother now and this gives me such joy. I serve in my church and this gives me much satisfaction. I believe I am going to be around for some time, but all the plans I made for my future dried up when I got sick.

Three QuestionsGirl who walks alone

It is those three questions stated earlier in this post that are driving me. What do I want? I want to be happy and fulfilled. I have decided that I have three avenues to achieve this. Being a grandmother, speaking at church, and writing. These things will carry me into the future and sustain me, while at the same time keeping me anchored in the now.

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When I am with my grand-daughter life changes at a moments notice and everything is a miracle. When I am speaking at church, I first must write, and I must focus on what my words are and how they will help someone right now. It is important to me that people realize their value, their purpose and that they are loved unconditionally.

Love is All

I have worked hard to realize and believe these truths for myself and I know that this knowledge of being loved beyond measure and having a purpose is what saves us.

And just as important to me, I find that writing has become my drive and my goal, the journey of my now and my future.

Pen to Paper What is YOUR dream?  How do you want to spend the rest of your life?  What makes you happy?  Please…comment below and share your thoughts with me.