It started sometime when I was in my teens, this dream that I was falling. It was basically the same dream every time. I don’t know why I started to have this dream or where it came from.
Sometimes there was a cliff that I was falling from, sometimes I was just falling from the sky.
It always ended the same way with me jolting awake, heart beating out of my chest, just before I hit the ground. So scared it would take awhile to go back to sleep.
When I became an adult and my life was much more complicated, and sometimes frightening, the dream came more often. I would jerk awake and sit up, covered in sweat, thankful that it was just a dream, or nightmare.
I started to pray about it, asking God to please make it stop. Each time the dream came it was more frightening that the last time. Not that anything changed, I just felt a more impending doom. I prayed, but the dream still came.
In 2000, I was introduced to the Internet, and I joined a chat room. I met many different people, from every walk of life. I found a home in a chat room for people who liked to explore new age ideas and spiritual phenomena. Finally one day I told them about my dream, and one of the people there told me that it was up to ME to make the dream stop.
Me? How? I asked. I was told that when the dream came again, to be consciously aware of what was going on, and project my desired outcome.
OK, sounds doable. I would give that a try.
It was a few weeks before that dream came again. When it did, somehow I was able to focus on what was going on. I felt the wind rushing by me as I was falling. I saw the leaves on the trees as I rushed by. I noticed the mountains in the distance and the blue sky above me.
I had not thought about what I wanted to happen. Then, just as I was nearing the ground, I spread out my arms and simply said “Fly” and up I swooped! Up, into the sky and over the trees! I flew through the air and felt the currents lifting me higher!
I don’t know if I can find the words to describe how it felt, but I felt like I had been set free. I felt like I had wings!
I have never had the falling dream again.